So, it’s been quite a while since I’ve updated my tumblr with a written blog. Well, here is my update!
2014 has brought many challenges, new experiences, and friendships. I don’t know how to start this exactly so I’ll just dive into it.
It’s almost been a year since my Ex and I broke up. We had our good and bad times like any other couple. I was brave enough to somewhat make a mends with him. I decided to pour my heart and ask for him back. I got rejected and maybe it was for the better. It hurt. Not gonna lie. Till this day, I can say out of the few guys I’ve dated he’s the only one who has my heart and I’m still in love with him. My main problem is letting go. It’s hard for me because I’m optimistic and always strive for the better. I hope he’s doing well and there’s not a day I go without thinking about him. I wish he was here to congratulate me on my new job. I know he would have been proud of me. Just to see the smile on his face.
I start my NEW JOB tomorrow. I am officially employed under NBC! Yes, NBC. I’m on cloud 9. I feel so blessed and worked so hard for this. I’ve never wanted anything so bad. My position is called “Program Operations Coordinator.” Pretty long title. I got my BA in Television Production and finally working in my field! I definitely feel grown up. I pay for my own rent, bills, car payments, and etc. I am definitely a different person I was a year ago. I used to be so dependent on my parents even though I’d try to deny it. But, I’m slowly becoming an adult. A year ago I was still trying to find myself and still have fun. Don’t get me wrong, I like having fun but it’s more about my career now.
Relationship wise? I’m done with that immature playing games with texting and non-loyal people. I know it’s bad to compare, but I want someone to love me like my Ex did. I’m not looking but he was truly the gentleman I needed and would take him back in a heartbeat. But, that feeling is one sided. I did a lot of growing within this year. I learned to pick my battles and not try to win everything. I’m more patient and ready to settle down. It pains me when I see my friends using those apps. We all know those “dating” apps. It pains me because I don’t see anyone really finding any quality guys or girls to date because they have alternative motives. Not saying there isn’t any good people out there, but come now, it’s an app and we aren’t stupid. I just hope my friends get over the apps one day and find their right person somewhere else.
Whelp, there is a little update on my life. Watch out for some new dance videos I’m shooting in the near future! I still dance but NBC will definitely take a lot of my time. I can’t wait to start tomorrow! AHHH! What to wear? Well, more updates to come.
XO, Robert <3
Mariah Carey - I Still Believe
One of my all time favorite songs. The lyrics say it all.
We were bored so we went to Disneyland !